Do you predict your future?
Do you think of anything that would matters to you ahead of time?
Do you plan ahead?
Sometimes I wonder I think a lot of things to happen the way I wanted them but we usually anticipate things we expect but rather we end up getting the things unexpectedly. We have many definition with the word "ahead". We define them as a direction to the days in advance, so we usually use the words synonymously.
Synonyms words are normally use as: leading, before, beforehand, forrader, forward, forwards, in advance, in front, in the lead, onward, onwards, out front.
So we use them accordingly. Most of the time we uses a post-it paper to write the TO DO lists for us to be reminded of what we are gonna do, or should do. So today, right after my dinner, I sat in my desk imagining things and suddenly I started to create and wanted to navigate my mind about stuff. I believe that knowledge is power, and we all know that when it comes to writing something, power is everything. You can't just write alone in the room and could think possibly as you could. It sometimes gives you a glimpse of what you wanna think or say. There are many things that I wanted to write here but it just doesn't fit on a right mood. The best mood I have is when you suddenly thought of a thing, a person or a place that visualizes yourself, you started to come up with a topic. Somehow, I would not want my blog a complete sore for readers to feel more bored. I wanted it more interactive like they can picture themselves so then others can relate to the story. It's not easy to be alone in the dark and start mumbling about what my mind tells me to say. If you are a writer, it's like you are a flashlight whom you can see shadows with what you are writing.
I feel like I am a wannabe here writing my stuff. Most of the time, writers are motivated or inspired writing about their personals and experiences because it's easy to understand yourself and say, it's more about your honesty - and thats what you intend to write. It's very scary when you start writing, it never wants you to stop until....you partake in all the fun and excitement of writing. Bloggin is all about that. It's all about what you want to tell people. It's how you wanna score big in a league of your own, so in the long run, you will have a great time playing.
I wanted to be more creative because writing is a lot of hardwork. It is really! It's a lot about you as a person to function to what you are writing. And it's not all anybody's business if you write and people doesn't like it. It's very terrifying to look into these posting in a white empty page asking yourself,
"What am I gonna write"? This is like my assignments. This is like collaborating with everyone who reads my writings. My skills is not so bad I think,[I see your brows there like, huh?] but writing is a lot more challenging. I should have done these for a long time. However, with all your hardworks, we even get constructive criticisms that I guess they are normal. So in order to play the role, I will do these professionally and commited, which means I am going to keep on blogging for the rest of my life. Odd, isn't it? Oh dear life...
I am no elusive expert to writing so it doesn't matter how you understand it but at least I share ideas here. Please qoute me from time to time about these writings because I wanted it to be acceptable, more of fun and more. Sometimes, if you get success all the time, it is more frightening than failure.
So I had these wish-lists I see in my future and here's what I plan:
In an hour from now....
- I will be taking a shower, brush my teeth, turn my alarm clock on, and listen to my ipod.
- burn midnight candles, incense, and put on a total energy sorrounding the house.
- will sleep early after this writing.
- and dream about the dreams I still never know.
One day from now...
- will be in the movie theater myself watching the NOW SHOWING, whocares about the title of the movie.
- eating popcorn and a coke because it's rewarding to watch it that way, anyways
- will be in the church because I've missed many sundays. Oh Lord please forgive my blog for being so contagious!
- buy at least 3 pairs of CK underwears and more...?
One week from now...
- I will pay my credit card bills on time
- will collect the free AKAI mini-hi fi from the redemption shop because I spent thousands for my iPod.
- will get a sattelite cable so I can now watch my Philippine channel.
- will walk in the park with my nephews eating candies and kick the balls
- will call my friends who are now abroad. And yes, I will call Isay, Treena, Jayne, and the couples from Thailand.
- will eventually stop smoking... methinks: yeah right!
Two weeks from now...
- will go back to dumbells and maintain using the clinique cleansing toner that only sits inside its box.
- will clean the terrace from too much dust and eecky smell
- will call my landlord to fix my freaking ceiling
- will kill the rat I saw from the terrace the other day. Fuck, he only comes out during the rainy days
- will general scrub the tiles in the bathroom
- will throw those horrible electric, fone, water, gas bills!
- will just sit in a restaurant with Soy and Bob during dinner buffet
One month from now...
- i will keep my hair a little longer because I can see grey hairs in my sideburns.. ha ha ha. I can see like dozen of 'em now. Im fuckin old!
- i will have my brother dump his old pathetic electric keyboard at my terrace
- will have to pay my tickets from Cathay Pacific before my reservation expires or I will stuck in the middle of nowhere looking for available Airlines again
- will buy clothes and shoes for mom and family - you see how generous I am?
Few months from now...
- will attend the wedding of Jayne and James in the Philippines - I am soooooooo bloody excited. Oh shame! this will double my ticket reservation... wait lang ha tawag lang ako!
- hoping to get a free ticket from Jayne's wedding - he he he!
- will be sitting in a chair at the beach in my hometown province enjoying the sun, the view and the mountains
- will be in a karaoke bars with Uncles and Aunties and dozen of cousins
- will be negotiating with my sis to provide me a space for my tiny shop so i can settle down now
- will eat garoupa in the province fresh from the sea
- will enjoy the atmosphere back home while my friends are cheering beers for me until 3 o'clock in the morning
- will have a bene-color skin and to be proud that I would look healthy again
- will have the new SONY laptop.. nah lets put it another few months on this.
One year from now...
- will cancel my credit card because it gives me headache from too much shaa shaa shaa shaaa.. dap! I will not ever do that! hahahaha!
- would I still be here in Hong Kong?
- thinking of retiring in chat rooms? - a BIG maybe!
- will finally meet the friends I met online - is that allowed?
- will pay my tax return. say, WHAT!!!!!
- will grown more grey hairs
- will still be chatting and singing online
- will no longer eat sweets because I'm too diabetic
- will WIN the lottery and leave Hong Kong and sit in a SPA in Thailand and rejuvanted!
- will be in Australia?
- will get marry... err.. yeah.. ohh well mmmm.. nah! NOT YET!!!
Five years from now...
- i will officially retire from my job
- i now owns a HOUSE near by the shore
- will not allow to look older
- will still have more grey hairs
- will... will.. will and so many wills...
And many years more...
- I will be older.....but becoming older is how we live!
- and will always be more of a happy person from the day I was born....
God Bless everyone!
what my iPod is playing: he loves me by: jill scott
